Luckily i played my guitar and sang out all the misery kept deep down inside my heart... Right now I am wondering... WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?! WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH MISERY TO TALK ABOUT AND WHY AM I ALWAYS LETTING NEGATIVENESS CONQUER ME?!

There are just so much questions that just made me want to cry... Others may think I'm just crazy thinking about so much things but who cares! I just want to pour out everything so as to make myself feel much better, or else i might have started self inflicting pain on myself...

Just because of a small incident, it can actually affect my entire mood for the mood and got me so depressed... To me, MELVIN LEE, friends are my everything (of course family as well) and I am very remorseful for sometimes not being able to spend time with my best of friends because of my commitments in school. This random thought just hit me hard on my head and got me thinking about this... to others... perhaps this is LAME SHIT but to me... everything that affects my friends affect me as well and i guess thats just what makes me WHO I REALLY AM! Friends that i have now all matters to me and i would very very much want to keep this friendship together with me till the very moment when I get hold of my last breath in this world...

I'm sorry that so much negativeness just blast out of me... but i just can't control it... I just got to let it all out... I feel... I feel... horrible just to keep everything deep inside my heart:(

I never wanted to really let others know about my blog because I am afraid about how people will see me and how people will just criticize me but that doesn't really matter to me anymore because i realize that it feels so terrible to be afraid of sharing because it just means that I am keeping too many secrets which is hurting myself...

I am done pouring out everything and I feel so much better now:D

I guess tomorrow will be a better day!(I hope!)

Negativeness is always part of me and i will learn to not let this negativeness bring me down!

MIAOVIN:D
Signing off