I am uncertain if i was being too sensitive but because of the incident that happened today. I have been reflecting on myself and asking myself if i was really a bad person that makes people dislike me. I want to have friends and not enemies. Maybe it because I make people feel irritated and therefore causing them to dislike me. Some people just love to take a dagger and stab right into my heart, it is pain but who knows. Whenever I am "stabbed" in the heart by others words, all i did was to just put on a smile and keep on going. The pain was really terrible and i wanted to shout out loud but I supress that feeling. I wonder how long i can take and I am really afraid that one day i would explode and things would turn out to be ugly.
Today during math remedial i realise that i have become a loser in mathmatics and i will never let this continue. I have to do something. I need to get myself back. I am glad that i at least have friends who are always supportive of me in whatever decisions i make. To all these friends, you will never be forgotton even if i were to become a retard. YOU ROCK!
