I... I... I am really exhausted and stressed up. I just want to run away, i just don't want to face this world. I REALLY WANT TO CRY OUT LOUD, it is terrible to bottle everything in my heart. It really is terrible:( Prelims are round the corner and yet i have not done revising most of my subjects yet! I feel that i have no more hope, i am useless and at this point of time everything seemed so meaningless. I just feel like scolding the F word but i should not be saying that. For so long, this is the first time in drama i feel so hopeless... i just want to get things done properly and do my best in this... I always thought that my group was lousy thats why i was in such state but i am so wrong... No matter what group i am in, as long as i did my best, things would turn out great and this shows that i have not put in effort. I have no else to blame but myself, it is not the fault of the other group members. I guess I am a failure, i was suppose to do a proper research but i didn't put in much effort in my research. I'm just feeling so low today, when i walk out of the drama room. The world seemed so different... I felt terrible, i felt so lonely as i made my way to the bus stop... everything just seemed so wrong:( I am glad that at least miss wong and mr yeo gave us suggestion... the things that they say just now may be lousy and the tone miss wong used may be like piercing my heart leaving me bleeding and dieing slowly but i guess that to me these were great. Like what mr yeo always tell me when i was still a president, a leader learns from mistake and i guess this is where i will learn. "No pain, no gain", if i never understand how painful this experience is, i will never learn. Sometimes i just feel that the leader in me is an absolute loser. What have i learnt from both NPCC and Student Council, am i a lousy leader? Mr yeo is right, i am waiting for things to happen and that is why things are like dragging on and on. I should have made things happen. I am mentally and physically tired, i just want to lay down close my eyes and sleep. sleep and never be awaken. I have said so much but the pain in my mind and heart still remains. My frail heart is bleeding profusingly and no amount of medincine can cure it. I'm feel terrible...